I’m Fully Funded!!!

Oh. My. Goodness. I have two days until I leave for the Race!!! I’ve been meaning to make another post lately and if I’m being honest, I currently have about six drafts of blogs all about the crazy things that have happened in preparation for the Race and everything that God has been showing me. So I’ll try and combine some of the things!

First of all, I’M FULLY FUNDED!!! This is a HUGE praise! Many people don’t realize how big of a deal this whole process was for my relationship with God. $16,900 is a lot to raise and when I signed up to do this thing, I didn’t really comprehend what trusting God with that was going to look like. This is a story of a person who had faith the size of a mustard seed and God still moved the mountain. Despite every area that I fell short and failed- which there are so many ways that I did- God STILL provided and showed me that I really needed to trust Him. I really needed to fail for me to take a step back from my pride and let God do the real work.

I thought I had it all figured out. When I signed up for the Race, I knew I wanted to do it and I knew why. I was excited to talk to people and raise support and I just got caught up in all of my qualities and what I could do for myself. But actually, as I started talking to people, I became an ashamed support-raiser. I felt like I was bothering people. I started procrastinating. I became unable to speak to people with confidence. I also realized that, deep down, I had very little faith that God was really actually going to provide a whole $16,900. Sure, I had some faith and really hoped, prayed, and trusted that God would provide, but it was just so hard for my human brain to imagine it happening. In a sense, I also procrastinated too much because I trusted God too much that he would provide which is kind of funny. I still remember when the first deadline was two days away- we had to have 25% raised and I was at 12%. That day, I went out to lunch with my dear friend who also did the Race and we prayed for my support raising and that God would provide and about other things and I just went home feeling at peace. Like I was in it for whatever God wanted to show me through whatever he wanted to do- funds raised or not. I felt confident in his plan. About an hour after I got home, I pulled up my page to check on something, but immediately noticed that I was not at 25%, but at 30%! I could not believe it. I just felt so overwhelmed and so loved by God. It’s like I put God’s abilities and my ideas of how I thought he worked inside of a box and he just blew it up! But I love it. I love how he has put this in my life just to blow my mind at all the ways he cares for me. I was that excited just at 30% funded. And now I’m at 100%. WOW. God is so good. When it comes to trusting in the Lord and that He will take care of me, these verses kept coming back into my mind:

“And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you- you of little faith?” Matthew 6:28-30

Yeah, that last part really called me out. I used to read this and kind of just skimmed over it and was like oh yeah God cares for me so don’t worry. But I think a deep understanding of this is really important and you don’t realize how much God cares for you until you have to depend on him. If things go your way and you start believing the lie that your achievements and other things are coming from you, you won’t realize it was God who provided. That’s where he has to come in and humble you in order to cause you to rely on him again so he can show you his love, strength, and infinite, crazy power.

I know that was super long, so thanks for making it this far!! A lot has happened and there are still more blogs to come but just wanted to hop on here and write something about being fully funded. God used my struggle and weakness to grow in me a deeper trust and love for him. I hope, whoever is reading this, that you will think about a mountain you have in your life. Something that seems impossible to work out or something you just don’t see happening. Maybe you already trust God with it completely, or maybe you are a little bit like me who had a tiny bit of faith. God will use that. And there is SO MUCH power in prayer! That’s not me just saying it- I just lived it! Enjoy this mountain because it will produce in you something greater than you can imagine. You will discover another way to look at God. A way you didn’t see him before. And stay excited for the ways that God is going to blow your mind in all of this discovery!! Because he is always always working!!

Love,

Kayley 🙂